it’s saturday already! and tomorrow is the last day of the festival! so hurry up to see some movies, over here in cologne. i’m really proud and happy to be a part of a team who made an awesome movie selection for this years edition. you can’t really see these things in regular cinemas, neither television and forget about web stream at all. directors are present, open to talk to you, share advices, put new questions in the room. above - some pictures of the Porn Panel “Queer Feminist Porn and Sex Positiv” with Jonanna Schorn (Gender Forum), Manuela Kay (co-director of the Porn Film Festival Berlin) and Marit Östberg (director of diverse short porn movies)
ps: more pictures this time on my facebook page
Time at The International Women’s Film Festival Dortmund|Cologne 2014
i’m glad to be a part of this year’s team once again. when the actual festival days come - inspiration flows and i remember how really cool, nicely tensed and exciting the time passes. meeting inspiring directors from all over the globe. yesterday - the director Beth B and her protagonist Bunny Love with the documentary about the Neo-Burlesque Scene in New York - EXPOSED
Oh how far away it appears now. Two weeks i’m back from Andalusian mountain paths and mediterranean breeze and how i miss the feeling of freedom and the feeling of the true life. You simple feel it in your fingers when holding your hand in front of you in the sunrise air. Feeling and simple knowing that this is it, this is the beauty and trust, your own flow all in tact. And all the paths are open, the world is hugging, you need so little.
In a town where some folks are collectively waiting for Godot the wind is very actively trying to blow away the so fairly earned freckles from my nose. After 35 days of paradise filled with the most kinds of love existing it’s a tough nut to get back to moods of windy rain and starless nights, when in contrast the eyes start missing the view of endless waters in front which in particular for my subconsciousness signalises the ultimate state of peace and freedom. As this I how I grew up – always with endless green blue horizon in front, always with a fresh breeze of salt taste on my lips after long walks along the coast.
Consciously keeping the own vibe clean is one of the most responsible things to do I guess. As I see that sometimes it spreads like a cold or snuffles without even coughing nor saying anything at all. There are so many thing’s I could talk about the feeling, refilling or a simple acceptance of a felt vibe as in the recent time it pretty much became a subject matter of my personal philosophical research. I’ll start small for now.
One of the possibilities to refresh the own vibe is to get on the road once in a while. Movement cleans the vibe like the flow of a little yet very powerful stream of fresh water somewhere where the natural sounds is the only thing you can hear. While sometimes sitting in a place, trying to move away the occasional dark cloud so heavily stuck above ones head seems like an impossible thing to do, the alternative is to make a step and move aside the cloud before thoughts and the vibe become totally rotten. One might say escape is not a solution, yet for now I’d say an escape is a supporting cure to heal the vibe.
To travel for long and far might be a cost and time requiring thing. In this case thinking smaller might help. As I recently travelled to the south of Spain this would be my advice for any citizen of the colder mid european area right now. I advise recharging batteries in sun, coast and village life calmness in combination with a little goal of helping out the locals. In Andalusia I had the chance to meet quite a few people offering a roof and food in exchange for 20 hours a week of helping hand with their household whether it’s feeding the chicken, watering the plants, fixing the doors or anything else one might be capable doing of. You can find some trusted offers registering yourself on the helpx or related sites. Personally I find it to be one of the best travelling deals when having a part time goal to stay on. Nonetheless I like collecting peoples stories, life advices and curiously following along a stream of happenings depending on others. Also, managing your travel time partly depending on others might be the best ingredient avoiding some unbearable-lightness-of-being states of mind. For now, as I am back in town, a positive though turning my engines on every day is the thought of leaving for another refreshment again very soon.
So go get on your way, think less, do more, be more and come back to share the good fresh and vibrant vibe.
and in our hearts spring came so suddenly. and it felt how it supposed to feel, and it was just perfect as it was. new buds and smells merging right with the blood molecules. eyes filled up with see blues.
"Felix for Winterrain”
my friend Indre up in the north of Germany has golden hands and a heart for literally warm colours out of hand spun wool. a few years ago she actually gave me one of the greatest christmas presents one can give to another - she taught me how to knit mittens! a worthy skill which led me to many nice cozy hours with music and a few more warmed up hands around the world. now a few years later i ordered my brother for another christmas present made by Indre - this blue-to-neon-pink cap, as my friend now has opened a little label called Winterrain for her creations. after all the cap travelled with me to spain where this nice lad Felix up in the picture is wearing it to cover his ears from the mountain breeze. and of course, for more pics and angles just scroll down the blog. and you might get interested to get a colour wool cap yourself :-)
Andalusia, January 2014
refilling tanks of energy, preserving the sun, recording sounds of wind and nature. a fair needed escape! i recommend it to everyone. i enjoy how calm and silent the coast life in winter can be. yet it offers just the right amount of light. every year from now on please!..
some more impressions of my trip to Andalusia this year. the mountain pictures are from Orgiva, a little hippy town on the way to Granada. I hear the mountains might look like New Zealand. good news is it still here, around the corner in Europe :-)
good morning Andalusia. this is the beginning of the 2014 for me. every morning it could be, all January. sometimes i wake up from the first gold sparkle, still in the dark. get up out of my bed and greet the beauty, hundred thousand billion lightyears old, just as it is, as it comes and goes. yet every morning. till from behind the mountain he rises, the eternal father and mother in one, making us see colors and feeling alive.
hello there two thousand fourteen!
you have been treating me nice since.
things are about to get really really good says my desktop picture. it’s the green blue wooden horse year says the good old Chinese wisdom. as these are some of my favourite colours especially in this combination (try putting them together, you’ll see) and Horse was my first word learned in English back in time in kindergarden, i must say i don’t have any hopes, i have a calm laid back silent Trust in this upcoming year. many challenges are in sight but if you start a year facing the sea, hearing the waves tickling wet coastline stones, with eyes closed and letting the sun cuddle your face leaving freckles of happiness on the tip of your nose.. it looks like it’s a perfect welcoming handshake into the year.
i wish you a good one, a better one, one that sounds beautiful just written out in letters.
"Well I’m nobody’s baby
I’m everybody’s girl
I’m the queen of nothing
I’m the king of the world”
- First Aid Kit
the year’s going towards the end, and things are about to get really good. always.
last weekend me and my friend Jurga finally went to a lithuanian youth meeting in Bonn, just around the corner from our so called home Bochum. on the dark halloween night we both hand in hand went up the dark forest road to reach this unbelievable villa of golden chandeliers and libraries with fireplaces, on a green hill surrounded by wild gardens and lithuanian apple trees.
this balcony was facing this gentle wildness, not neatly organised gardens and fountains how it mostly would be expected, to reflect the human order of the inside. in contrary it was the best combination of man kind structures in the house with free spirit nature arrangements outside. a balcony perfect in its way to breath a good amount of really fresh air of the green after one of the body and mind workshops under this chandelier.
The Wedding of M+A Sneak Peek
the weekend was busy as i got to shoot another wedding ceremony in an incredible post-coal-mine-industrial place with iron, shaft towers and this Jugendstil door at one of the buildings. it’s THE reason to visit the Ruhr region as it has so much variety to offer in every little city around! and i wish to play around more with the couples and my camera in these kind of venues. More pictures to come soon.